邓爷爷老早就告诫我们，要坚持两手抓，两手都要硬

既然暂时无法选择，那就好好充实自己

一手抓工作，一手抓学习

建立具有qiaolin主义特色的新生活，~\(≧▽≦)/~啦啦啦

静观己心，厚积薄发

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一年过去

又一年过去

毕业满一年的时候，大家纷纷都感慨写总结；毕业满2年的时候，大家很多忘了已经2年。所有，在一个地方呆的太久，便容易忘记时间。

不能说转眼之间，因为确实有过煎熬的时候。但是回首就老了2年，校园人变成了社会人，谁又敢说时间爬的像蜗牛呢？

第一份工作，踏踏实实的做了2年，今天正好是在2周年纪念日。而前天正好是发工资的日子，给了我一个小小的惊喜，涨了一些工资，凑巧一些路费报销下来加在一起，这个数字让人有点兴奋，尽管不全是工资（╮(╯▽╰)╭好吧~也许以后的我会笑自己没出息，但是前天是挺开心 我爱人民币╮(╯▽╰)╭）

不能说一成不变。接触的面慢慢变广，看问题更理智了，学会分析更自主的学习，学会更独立的处理异常的能力。相比很多朋友我是幸运的，国内来到国外，庆幸自己遇到一个很好的boss，宽容，有耐心，信任，激励。所以纵使在这边的工作琐碎烦闷，还是慢慢坚持下来并且逐渐理清，并且在心存感激的同时，越来越觉得工作变得逐渐简单甚至时而质疑自己做这份工作有多少价值，而近来这种质疑越来越频繁，兴许是由于我的互联网情节，我总觉得自己应该是在互联网行业内过爬滚打才对，尽管我不知道我能做什么。我不精通技术，无实践经历，但如朋友所说，我有清晰的逻辑，自主学习能力强，善于利用搜索引擎挖掘各种信息，对信息敏感度高，对产品体验细致，推广、运营、渠道……也许总有一份工作是适合我的，并且能让我爱上越走越深~ 又或许这样的想法是幼稚而可笑的。电子商务这个专业，四年以来没带给我们什么，却无形之中这样的情节挥之不去，让你不自主的去关注一些互联网业内的动态，想去翻阅此类的新闻，什么APP市场，什么移动互联网，什么行业数据……尽管似乎和自己工作无关……我不知道别人是否是这样的感觉，但是我似乎有点欲罢不能。

于是在今天2周年的纪念日上，我开始有点迟疑了，是否改变方向，给自己一个尝试，换个环境？2年是个不长不短的时间，但是这份工作给了我舒适的食住环境，给了我大量的自主支配时间，给了我2个月一次旅游或者探亲的时间，给了我一份在同学之中处于不错的薪水，而对于进出口这个行业，也逐渐纯熟~ 突然之间的转变，我已经毕业2年，甚至不确定是否可以找到这方面的工作，而若真的需要转变，那无疑是越早越好。

无论如何，学习不该止步，积累的越多，就越从容。生活就像自行车，只有在前进中才能找到平衡，我想，转变能带来灾难，但也能带来惊喜。

Make a plan.

These are emails scams I received in these several days, if you also receive an email from a stranger like this or promising you millions of dollars, you should just delete it or ignore it, because it is a pack of lies.

The fraud is difficult to stop, but we can have some fun, and have the criminals use their time in vain. That is called scam baiting.

Let us see.

Subject: THIS IS MY FULL LIFE STORY WITH LOVE AND TRUST

Time: 3/6/2012

Email: Lucy Oneil <lucyoneil14@yahoo.com>

1. 1.          Hello My Dearest

I am more than happy in your reply to my mail.How was your day?.i hope you had a wonder full sweet day,i really thanks God for his infinite Mercy upon me in this my wilderness experience. Mine was hot over here in Dakar Senegal.My name is LUCY O’NEIL single 24 years and never married, i am fromIVORY COASTin West Africa and presently i am residing in the refugee camp here inDakarSenegalas a result of the civil war that was fought in my country. My late father Dr Harold O’Neil  was the chairman managing director Harold   INDUSTRIAL COMPANY LTD, inMonroviahe is also the personal adviser to the former head of state before the rebels attacked our house one early morning and killed my father. Due to the sudden death of my father , my mother had a blood pressure with resulted to her death after  four month  my beloved father left us.It was only me that is alive now and i managed to make my way to near by country Senegal where i am living now as a refugee. Due  to the maltreatment am receiving from my step mother.I would like to know more about you. Your likes and what you dislikes,your hobbies and what you are doing presently. I will tell you more about myself in my next mail. Attached here is my picture . Hoping to hear from you soonest,

Yours Forever.

LUCY

 Also a pic:

1. 2.          Hello Dearest,

I am glad to write to you, how are you? I hope you are fine, I thank God for you. Your message was a total relief to me, May God protect you for me because he is the one who brought you in my life.  I will like him to make away for you, my love, i love the way you sound to me, and i promise to be with you and i will like you to help me to come out of this camp so that i come to your country and have a free life.

In this camp, We are many living as refugees and our freedom is restricted because we do not have any traveling paper. It is just like one staying in the prison and i hope by Gods grace I will come out of here very soon. At the moment, i do not have any relative whom i can go to, all my relatives ran away in the middle of the war.

The only person i have now is Reverend James peter who is the Reverend Minister in charge of the church here in the camp (Christ de EvangelicMission). He has been very nice to me since I came here but I am not living with him rather I am living in the woman’s hostel because the camp have two hostels one for men the other for women. The Pastor’s

Telephone number: 00221-776901191 Or 00221-776901191

)

Honey, please feel free to call me through his number because i have told him about you. If you call, tell him that you want to speak with me (Lucy O’Neil), he will surely send for me from the hostel to come and answer your call. As a refugee I do not have any right or privilege to any thing be it money or whatever because it is against the law of this country. Meanwhile, i am communicating with you through the Reverend’s Computer because this is the only means we can communicate to each other

Again i do not work nor do anything for living as a result that eating is very difficult as we are given food ones a day. Please listen to this, I have my late father’s statement of account and death certificate here with me which I will send to you latter, because when he was alive he deposited some amount of money in a leading bank (Standard Chartered Bank) which he used my name as the next of kin, the amount in question is $5.3 Million U.S Dollars (Five Million, three Hundred Thousand US Dollars ).

Meanwhile, I will like you to help me process and transfer this money to your account as my ‘foreign partner’ which was the bank’s condition to get the money transferred. From it, you can send me money to prepare and get ready my traveling documents to come  over there in order to meet you. I kept this secret to people in the camp here, the only person that knows about it is the Reverend peter James because he is like a father to me.

So in the light of above i will like you to keep it to yourself and do not tell it to anyone for I am afraid of loosing my life and the money if people get to know about it.      My love lets plan on how to meet you now, in your country because i had a conversation with the Reverend yesterday about how i can leave to meet you there in your country. According to the Reverend , i need to have an International passport in order to warrant and secure my departure from this camp. He said that with the passport, i will have freedom to visit you in your country. I will be waiting to hear from you. Please help me contact the reverend through his email address to know how long it will take for me to get my international passport.

Here is the Reverend e- mail contact: reverendpeter94@yahoo.com

Name Of the rev pastor is: Rev.  Peter James

Telephone number: +00221-776901191 Or 00221-776901191

So in the light of above i will like you to keep it to yourself and do not tell it to anyone for I am afraid of loosing my life and the money if people get to know about it. Remember to contact the reverend, tell him that you want to get a passport for Miss Lucy O’Neil. I am giving you all these information due to trust and believing that no one will think to hurt me after hearing all that i have gone through.

My love, please I will like you to call me by 13 o’clock GMTLondonlocal time, like I said i have a lot to tell you. My darling if you need to transfer the money to your account first, please tell me so that i will  give you the bank contact  for you to contact the bank. Have a nice day and pray for me.

I am waiting to hear from you soon. Call me if you wish

Yours sincerely, LUCY

Subject: please my darling send an email to this bank for confirmation and possible transfer‏‏er

3/7/2012

From Lucy Oneil lucyoneil14@yahoo.com

Below is the letter you will send to the bank please just fill it and send it to the bank

Dear Sir,

My names is Mr.,,,,,,,,,, I am standing for the family of Late Dr Harold O’Neil, to request the funds of  $5.3 Million U.S Dollars) on hold be forward to my account in my country. As late Dr Harold O’Neil , Foreign Business Partner, I am helping her daughter Miss Lucy O’Neil, move to my country as soon as possible.

I am writing AIB Bank Group UK on Miss Lucy O’Neil, behalf, to request the Funds of her late father,  Late Dr Harold O’Neil , whose account number;SCB/000895478/48), be released and transferred over here in my country to me so she may start coming to my country.

My plan is to have Miss Lucy O’Neil,, continue her education as soon as her inheritance is transferred before we start discussing the best kind of business for her to invest in here in my country.

Please could you let me know what to do in order to achieve this?

Thanking you for your cooperation,

Mr …………..

AIB Group BANK (UK)

16Antrim Road,BT15 2AA

Sede,4 Queens Square,

Belfast,BT1 3DJ, Reg. N º, NY 18800

Telex: 8956815/Swift 2L: PTRBGB

Tel / Fax: + 4477835396764

office Email  (infoaib@london.com)

Contacto: Robbie Henneberry

LUCY is the name my parents called me while they were alive and lucy is the name that people and friends knows me with.The money is being deposited with LUCY O’Neil, Contact them now on how to transfer the $5.3 million Dollars deposited by my late father of which i am the next of kin to your account in your country.

I have mapped out 15% for your assistance and 5% for any expenses that might come up in this transfer. My dear i am glad that God has brought you to see me out from this situation and i promise to be kind and will equally need you in every area of my life plus investing this money since i am still too young to manage this amount of money. As i told you before, this camp is just like a prison and my prayers is to move out from here as soon as possible. Please make sure that you contact the bank so that after the transfer you can send some money from that money for me to prepare my traveling documents to meet with you in your country. Awaiting to hear from you soonest!

Yours Beloved

LUCY

Subject: Hi

3/7/2012

From: amaco kenneth kenamaco99@gmail.com

Hello,

I am Mr. Kenneth Amaco.advocate in a court of law, personal attorney to Engineer.P.La citizen of your country who used to Work with Shell Development Company here inLomeTogo, the following should be transferred to as my client. From 21 April 2009, my client, his wife and their only daughter were involved in a car accident along Nouvissi High-speed roads.All passengers of the vehicle unfortunately lost there lives. Since then I have made several inquiries to your embassy here to locate any of my clients extended relatives, this has also proved unsuccessful.

After several attempts, I decided to track his last name on the Internet to locate any member of his family I contacted you hence you share the last name with him, it will be very easy for you to be the next of kin. Therefore I have contact you to assist me in repatriating the fund amount of 4.5 million dollars left behind by my client before it gets confiscated or declared unfit for the Security Finance Company where this huge amount were deposited.

The said Security Finance Company has issued me a notice to give to relatives or his account confiscated over the next twenty one official working days.Since I was unsuccessfully to find relatives for 2 years now I seekthe consent to present you as next of kin to the deceased since you have the same names, so that the proceeds of this account can be paid to you. Consequently, upon receipt of your positive response, we will then discuss the exchange rate and terms for the transfer.

I have all the necessary information and legal documents necessary for you to back the claim. All I require from you is your honest cooperation to enable us see this deal through. I guarantee that this will be done within a legal mechanism that will protect you from any breach of the law.

Please reply me as quick as possible with full names, age and profession

Best regards.

Barrister Kenneth Amac

If you received a similar letter, please ignore it. Do not answer it. If you do, you will end up on more of the mailing lists used by the criminals behind this fraud.

Take note and have fun!!

回顾2011年（真抱歉现在才来这里回顾2011年）,过得着实不算很开心，看起来似乎我在试图给自己各种改变，但是想想却似乎什么也没有做，更多的时候，都有种“努力展翅的笼中鸟”，硬撑着期待转变，也就那么撑了过去。但不可否认的，我成熟，也从容了。

有些人和事淡漠了，有些人和事离开了，但无意间又收获了一些惊喜，所以说，生活之中到处充满“能量守恒定律”。现实虽然不算美丽，但是总要收拾残局。

2012，残局与新局交接的机会，突然有种很迫切的感觉，迫切的有种危机感，迫切的觉得需要改变，迫切的需要重新梳理自己，迫切的认识到必须把那些虚无缥缈的想法抑或是理想转化分解为一个个现实的步骤和行动，因为如果不迈出第一步，理想就永远都是幻想。一切的一切都毫无意义，除非我们付出行动。即使很多时候我不知道自己的理想是什么，可那又怎么样呢？那就把当下认为该做的事情做好。

踏踏实实的，一步一步的……

昨天丹姐兴冲冲的和我说，小苗回南宁了。我问：“什么时候？”“下周一。”下午霜又和我重复了一遍，与此同时，得知另外一位朋友也从北京回南宁了。于是都在问我什么时候回，“呵呵，我还不知道。”是真的还不知道，我也不知道回国后会不会在广西，但我很高兴，你们都离家越来越近了。还是那句话，我亲爱的朋友们，你们都很棒，一定要加油！

当初一起去昆山的同学，这几天都纷纷的说提离职了，燕子已经在往上海找工作，慧娟了小莫也相继的要走了，平时发邮件闲聊的几个人，似乎就很快就要剩下我一人，虽然现在就不在一起，但是也能感受到这种别离。也许是受他们的影响，我突然想做一份自己的简历，就算是重新审视自己也好，以备不时之需也好，指不定哪天我就走了，呵呵。

最近很久没有写东西了，说到最近，我过得还好吧，除了有时候有点在每次浪费时间后的自责和不安，其他都过的挺开心。在网上教一个外国朋友中文，虽然是比较困难，但还挺好玩的。最近我突然发现，我的历史知识几乎空白，简直是白痴，所以我想，我该慢慢看看这方面的东西，哎，女孩子……

就先写到这吧，以后我想多补齐专业的知识，博客也可能会拿来记一些自己整理的这方面的资料。下个月生日了，想给自己一份礼物，也许在此之前我走在有条不紊的作改变的路上是给自己最好的礼物，总之，2012，一切充满生机，一切加油^^

很久都没有写博客了。

9月1号，从杨家搬到了Meilinh tower，多了宽阔的客厅和华丽的厨房，也便与我们那极速的网速say goodbye。每天多了三四十分钟的车程，再也不能赖床了，我也没有散步的地方了，以后体重该蹭蹭网上窜了吧……网页几乎都打不开，网络电话也几乎不再顺畅，大家在一面抓狂一面抱怨的同时，也一面慢慢习惯。于是自然的，便慢慢荒芜了这里……

现在是在公司，外面下着雨，打着雷，没有什么特别的事情，日记本用完了，索性在这里发些只言片语，我想以后这事也许可以常干，嘎嘎（(*^__^*)

“三个人的中秋”，这应该是大学的几大关键字之一吧，习惯的有点太过自然，几乎每年都不需要考虑中秋怎么过，只是知道是和你们一起，所以去年的中秋我是如何度过的，昨晚绞尽脑汁我都记不起。而昨晚，则是平淡再平淡，却也觉得很习惯了，也许异地过节，本来就不会有太多的感觉。没有看到黄铭在线，和陆只是了了几句，给妈妈打了电话，和天鹅还有她妈妈视频聊聊天，虽然这电话打的要对着电脑吼，视频不能和语音同步，还是感觉倍加温馨。

越南的国庆节，去了一次下龙湾。这算是我第一次去看海，但也算不上是第一次见海，因为在姐姐家的阳台上，可以看到海。老实说，沙滩让人失望，只是觉得很晒，很累，坐完车坐船，所以晚上睡觉的时候，都感觉自己的床是在海上飘，一直晃……

前几天有事找River，翻开邮件通讯录想找她电话，才发现数据都已清空，我恍悟，哦，已经离职了，前几天的事情，焕焕也走了。熟悉的人越来越少了，我想慧娟会有点落寞的感觉，不管怎么样，加油！

明天又是周三了，过的真快，感觉什么都还没做。明天的计划？好好吃饭好好学习好好减肥吧。